Yup. I felt it was time for a name change as MissRaspberri really doesn't fit me anymore and it never really did. The Miss comes from following a trend because I wasn't creative enough to come up with anything original when I was switching from my FaeriesDrkDesire account. And the Raspberri part comes from Raspberry flavored vodka. Since I've pretty much quit drinking not only for my general physical health but for my mental health as well, that part no longer fits either.
This is just another change for me. A lot of things have shifted in the past year and will continue to shift. A mix of good and bad. On the good side I'm moving to a new state, starting a new and exciting life. I'm hoping to grow a lot, experience a lot, and in general become a happier person. I now have a niece and while I might now be able to interact with her as much now that I'm moving, I'm glad she is here. I want to be the aunt that spoils her. On the bad side I lost two people who I considered my two best friends. For the first, I hope she finds the happiness and stability in life that she needs. Hopefully she will learn to put her own health and happiness in front of the women she thinks she needs to make her happy and to not treat the people who are really close to her in the way that she treated me. And for the second, I hope she learns to see that fault never rests with one person alone and that seeing your own faults will help you a lot more in the future than placing all the blame on others. Despite how either of them view me at the moment or how they will view me in the future, I hope they both find what they are truly looking for.
But back to the new name.
RaspingHerWords. I chose this for a few reasons. I think when most people hear the word 'rasp' they think of a raspy voice. They think of something that is hard and rough. Which describes where I am right now with my writing. I've taken a long time off of writing anything besides character profiles. It's hard for me to write as much these days. And it's going to be hard to change that. I know you cannot force inspiration, and I know you have to nurture growth. They are two things that I will have to work very hard to attain.
Rasping also has another definition. It means to scrape into something smoother. To take something that is coarse or sharp and polish it. Which is what I want to do with my writing. I want to make it better, to elevate it from something that is so jagged and irregular into something that I can be proud of. Looking back at what I wrote last year for NaNoWriMo reminds me just how undisciplined and unfocused I am. I hope to see something much better in the coming months and especially for whatever I do this November for the contest.
Changing to this name is part of a promise to myself to become a better writer. And the fact that I can still go by Rasp is a plus too. xD